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Overnight Therapy - Chapter Twenty-Three

Title: Overnight Therapy

Author: LSM71059
Fandom: Spooks
Characters: Lucas
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: Season Seven
Summary: Lucas North has someone to confide in and take care of him when the nightmares and bad flashbacks happen.
Disclaimer: All Spooks Characters are the intellectual property of the BBC.
The Inspiration for this story was taken from the song "South City Midnight Lady" by the Doobie Brothers
(Time Line for chapter: Between Episodes 7.03 & 7.04)
 

 

Chapter Twenty-Three

Lucas had been somewhat shell shocked to learn Stephen had for all intense purposes gone through the same trauma he had endured. There was something about knowing allowed him to let the pain rise to the surface from deep down inside when Lori had gently turned his head toward her and looked in to his eyes.

He appreciated the way she didn’t pursue any details or questions. And how she was there for him not seeming to want or expect anything him but to be able to hold and give him comfort as his mind raced with a million thoughts and questions.

When a particularly horrendous memory would hit him, Lucas would hug Lori’s waist a little tighter. He adored the way she instinctively knew he needed her reassurance by stroking his hair a little firmer, wrapping her arm and legs a little tighter around him and kiss the top of his head till it passed. It was as if she was letting him know silently that she was there for him and wasn’t going anywhere. When he would lighten his grip on her, she would lightly stroke his eyebrows or the side of his face before putting her hand on top of his head and she would relax her arm and legs but keep them in place holding him. He started and stopped to open his mouth and say something many times over the three hours they lay on the couch but the words would not come.

Most of his thoughts were of the time spent in Russia but other stray thoughts he had were that Elizabeta should have been the one here holding him and seeing him through this tough patch. But he was grateful in a way that it was Lori instead because obviously she having prior knowledge of what his experiences might have been like enabled her to help him without having to ask out loud what was wrong. She seemed to have this uncanny sense of when to talk and when just to be there lending her calming presence.

He wondered if the night before had the heat from his body, his heart beat and steady breathing created the same soothing hypnotic affect on Lori that hers had on him this morning. She was so therapeutic for him without all the psychological mumbo jumbo that MI-5 had tried to make him endure. She was the only one around him who didn’t want or require anything of him. For better or worse, he could simply be himself.

A matter of a few short days ago, Lori had thanked him for the pleasure of his company and spending time with her. In many ways, she was a lot like him, a little lost and looking for someone to find her. She had endured a great many tragedies that he knew of and there probably more he was yet to discover. Perhaps they were soul mates meant to have found each other. He was about ready to voice all of what he had remembered and thought over the three hours when his phone rang.

Lori reached over to the end table, picked it up and handed to him. He turned the phone over and looked at the caller id. Seeing who was calling, he gave a great sigh and sat up straight in preparation to have to get up to leave the room to take the call in private. Lori made it easy on him, she moved her legs and released her grip getting up herself motioning that she was going to run down the hall to use the facilities while he took his call. He smiled and nodded his head in understanding as he answered all business, “Yes, Ros, what can I do for you?”

“Lucas, I was wondering if you would be available to come in to the grid this morning for an hour or two.”

Lucas inwardly groaned but answered, “Of course, is there something in particular going on? I must tell you I do have a prior engagement for this afternoon and will need to cancel it if this going to take all day.” He thought to himself there was no way he wanted to miss taking Lori down to the pub in lieu of listening to Ros drone on about matters that could in all reality wait until Monday to discuss but MI-5 did and always would come first before fun.

“I don’t anticipate this running past Noon so no need to cancel your prior engagement. How soon can you be here?” Ros said wondering what he had going this afternoon. She still didn’t trust him completely and wondered why Harry had put so much faith in him so soon to pull the surveillance detail. Yes, he was instrumental in taking down Katchimov but she still put most of the blame on him for Adam’s death. Why couldn’t it have Lucas driving the car and Adam in the park? He was more expendable than Adam wasn’t he?

“I will be there within the half hour,” Lucas answered.

Ros clipped, “See you then,” and hung up without waiting for a response.

Lucas closed his phone shaking his head. He thought, “The original Ice Bitch, could she be any colder? I wonder if Ros has any friends outside of MI-5 or if it really is the only thing in her life. Well, that blows some of my plans for Lori today, but they can easily be put on hold and done later. I best be on my way. The sooner I go, the sooner I can come back.” He got up from the sofa and stretched out his long arms and twisted his waist back and forth to loosen up. Lori was coming back down the hall as he straightened.

She said, “Judging by the expression on your face, I’d say that phone call was an unwelcomed intrusion in to your Saturday.”

“Perceptive as always,” Lucas said. “I have to go in to the grid for an hour or two. But I should be back in plenty of time to take you down to the pub.”

“You go do what you need to. You are talking to the original ‘I have to cancel plans because of work’ person. Just give me a call when you get free. As luck would have it, my schedule is very open and flexible today,” Lori said giving him a bright and encouraging smile.

Lucas responded with a hug and a kiss on her forehead before saying softly and faltering a bit as he spoke, “Thanks for understanding and thanks for…….” He simply pointed to the sofa trying to indicate that he was immensely grateful for what she had just done for him.

Lori answered with her own hug and a kiss on the cheek just as softly, “Anytime, Lucas, anytime.”

They stood there for a moment longer in an embrace before simultaneously straightening. Lori said, “You know it’s almost eerie how in sync we are at times. But I like it, don’t you?”

“I do. I must run for now, but will ring you when I’ve finished,” Lucas said very reluctant to leave.

“Duty calls,” Lori said picking up both sets of keys, handing them to him and playfully pushing him towards the door.

Lucas smiled, “Indeed it does.” He gave her one last hug before crossing the hall to his place to retrieve his coat. He knew when he looked back just before going in, Lori would be there standing in her doorway to give him one final little wave before closing her door. When he turned back she did not disappoint, but instead of a wave this time, she blew him a playful kiss. He pretended to catch it and stuck his hand in his pocket as if he was stowing it to save for later. Lori’s giggle at his action wafted across the hall and to his ears as she closed her door.

Lori makes this all so much more bearable with her presence,” He thought as he quickly grabbed his coat, locked his door and departed to make the walk to Thames House.

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Lori wanted to create a cocoon around Lucas to comfort him. She was grateful and pleased he finally let her in enough to not mask the pain and see it in his eyes. She knew from first hand experience that look on his face meant he was processing what she had told him and it would dredge up, if they were anything like Stephen’s, some seriously horrific memories. But this was all part of the healing process to bring them out in to the light of day, not just bury them deep in the dark corners of his mind.

She would sit here with him for as long as he wanted. If he wanted to talk, they would talk. If he wanted to say nothing at all and let her hold him, that’s what they would do. As far as Lori was concerned, Lucas was in total control of this situation, she would simply be what he needed her to be.
 

The first time he hugged her a bit tighter, she looked at his face carefully. The shadows passing over it made her realize he must be reliving a bad memory. So she held him tighter with her arm and legs, stroked his hair a bit harder to let him know she was right there with him without saying a word. She kissed the top of his head in a tender way. She thought to herself, “This is what I am best at. Just being there for someone and helping them through whatever. Perhaps it is my destiny to go through life trying to help people deal with their pain unlike what I was expected to do. Deal with it on my own and just bury it because no one was comfortable speaking about it.”

She passed the time holding Lucas by reminiscing through her mind about her other guys. Was there any thing from them she could use to help Lucas? Obviously, Stephen was the main resource to use but surely there were bits and pieces from the others too. Besides the Russian ordeal, she was extremely concerned with helping him deal with the loss of his wife. That was going to be an extremely sensitive path to go down. There again, Lucas would be in the driver’s seat when and where he was ready to deal with it.
 

Lori kept count of how many times Lucas hugged her tighter. To her thinking, it was the number of memories he was dredging up. She noticed he had opened and closed his mouth many times. She knew he was having trouble forming the words to say what he wanted to. All of the guys had been the same way but once they started to talk, they couldn’t seem to stop. And that was a good thing.
 

She was on the verge of having to get up to use the facilities when his phone rang. Lori handed to Lucas. She could tell he was less than thrilled with who was on the other of the line. Her money was on either Harry or Ros. She slid herself out from underneath him getting up and motioning she was going down the hall for a bit. It felt good to get up and stretch her legs after sitting for close to three hours. While she was in the bathroom, Lori hoped she had done him some good by comforting him. He had seemed to welcome it. The look on Lucas’ face as she came back down the hall told her that he would have to be going. She said, “Judging by the expression on your face, I’d say that phone call was an unwelcomed intrusion in to your Saturday.”
 

“Perceptive as always,” Lucas said. “I have to go in to the grid for an hour or two. But I should be back in plenty of time to take you down to the pub.”
 

She could tell he wanted to stay with her and not leave but being him, duty always came before any of his personal preferences, Lori said, “You go do what you need to. You are talking to the original ‘I have to cancel plans because of work’ person. Just give me a call when you get free. As luck would have it, my schedule is very open and flexible today.”
 

Lucas surprised her responding with a hug and a kiss on her forehead before saying softly and faltering a bit as he spoke, “Thanks for understanding and thanks for…….” He simply pointed to the sofa trying to indicate that he was immensely grateful for what she had just done for him.
 

She really wanted to quip it was no big deal but instead, Lori answered with her own hug and a kiss on the cheek just as softly, “Anytime, Lucas, anytime.”
 

They stood there for a moment longer in an embrace before simultaneously straightening. Lori said, “You know it’s almost eerie how in sync we are at times. But I like it, don’t you?”
 

“I do. I must run for now, but will ring you when I’ve finished,” Lucas said.
 

She knew he was very reluctant to leave so she helped out by saying, “Duty calls.”
 

She picked up both sets of keys, handing them to him and playfully pushed him towards the door. It had the affect she wanted when he gave her a smile, “Indeed it does.”

And with one last hug from him, he was out the door and across the hall. She waited for him to look back before closing her own door. This time instead of a little wave, just for fun she blew him a kiss to see what his reaction would be. She was delighted when he pretended to catch it and stick in his pocket as if he was stowing it to save for later. She couldn’t help but giggle as she closed the door to her place. She supposed it was time to get some work of her own done by checking messages. Lori went to the bedroom to retrieve her Blackberry.  She picked it up and groaned when the readout said she had six missed calls and just as many messages. She said to the room in general, "Lucky me, looks like six someones are missing me."


 

Comments

( 6 comments — Leave a comment )
bunkie77
May. 2nd, 2009 11:04 pm (UTC)
Very sweet scene, liked seeing it play from both Lori's & Lucas' perspective. Man, 3 hours on the couch with Lucas in her arms/legs...I bet if you look up "self-control" in the dictionary, you'd see Lori's picture, LOL!
lsm71059
May. 3rd, 2009 04:17 am (UTC)
Thanks, glad you found it to be sweet and liked seeing it played from both perspectives.

I'll have to get my Webster's out to see if her photo is there, LOL.
betty_eyes
May. 3rd, 2009 01:47 am (UTC)
I had to agree with Bunkie. Lori is the Self Control Queen and Lady :P Anyway, that was not a moment to feel anything romantic cause he was through a big deal and only needed to be conforted.
Ros, another Queen but Queen of Ice... It's so mean just to think not even said Lucas was more expendable than Adam. They were spooks and she should know that kind of thing are always there to happen. Perphaps having spent eight years in a Russian Prision and lost his wife isn't suffering enough for Miss Ros
So let's see what Good Ros is holding for our favourite Spy Candy?

Thanks for a lovely reading.
Hugs,
Lauraxxx

P.S. Have a nice week!!!!
lsm71059
May. 3rd, 2009 04:18 am (UTC)
You are quite welcome. You have a lovely week yourself.
mrs_tubbs
May. 4th, 2009 07:52 pm (UTC)
That was lovely :) Apart from the bit with Ros :(
lsm71059
May. 4th, 2009 07:56 pm (UTC)
Why thank you for saying so. And what can I say? Someone had to bring the angst may as well be Ros.
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